We are almost there. Restrictions are lifting (for the second time), stores and restaurants are opening and some businesses are starting back. It has been almost a year and fingers crossed we are getting to the end. Never before has the entire world shut down at the same time. We keep moving forward as there really isn't another option, but what happens when we come out the other side? Will we think back in disbelief? Cry with relief, but sadness for those who were lost? Will we take the time to truly reflect and be grateful for what this time gave to us?
I like to think of it as a 'new beginning'. Over the past year, I have gone from a very regimented, scheduled individual- up at 5am, out the door to the gym, workout for one hour, complete a work day, drive home and start over again the next day.....to a very relaxed, slower paced woman with no real schedule. The first few months were definitely amazing. It was so nice to sleep in a bit longer, stay up a bit later and eat all three meals at my own kitchen table instead of on the run. Although I have never really been able to meditate, I have started a new practice of 'walking away'. During my day, I will move to a comfy chair, take a few deep breaths and close my eyes. This can last anywhere from 5 minutes to 20 minutes and allows me to keep calm. I was able to spend 24/7 with my aging dog, Bo who recently passed away- something I was never able to do while being in the office. I learned how important my family and friends are and how much I miss spending time with them.
My goal as we get closer to the finish line is to remember the amazing things that have come out of this. What has shifted for me? What do I want to continue doing when we get back at it? And most importantly, what did I learn about who I am that I no longer need to carry with me?
It has been tough, heart-breaking, scary and sad. But oh, the blessings. xo
Judging yourself is taking the easy route, it's working through it that makes you strong.